It's been a long time since I've updated this. Warning: I'm going to be talking about kink stuff, particularly the sort of stuff I post all the time. So if you come here to view my minuscule collection of non-fighting artwork, feel free to ignore this journal!
So, I have a sneaking suspicion that what I'm about to say applies to a large number of people who follow me, but I'm kind of a big fan of seeing one girl getting whupped by another girl. I don't know if there's a 100% accurate term to describe it, given all the nuances, and I'm sure it's slightly different for everyone, but... you have a favorite character, and you like to see her lose. For me, there's an emotional resonance in defeat. Disappointment, sorrow, resentment, humiliation... it all plays into greater whole. But the strange thing is, for the longest time, I was wary of coming out and admitting that to more than a handful of close friends, despite the fact that it's kinda' obvious. So what gives? That's what I think I've finally figured out: the source of this weird apprehension.
To put it simply, I think it all stems from a desire not to be misunderstood. If you create a character with the intention of drawing pictures of her losing sexy fights, a lot of people will fairly assume that she's some kind of jobber (and for anyone not familiar with the term, a "jobber" is basically a fighter set up to lose and make their opponent look better). But see, my own character, Heather, is not a jobber. She's actually quite a tough and experienced fighter. The fact that she's so competent makes her losses become all the more heart-wrenching, and therefore appealing. But here's the catch: being a slow artist, I can't draw or elaborate on her entire career. Sometimes, I just want to get to the good stuff without all the setup, and that's where the misunderstanding arises. Without all the context that exists solely in my head, anyone who stumbles across my gallery might very well assume that she simply sucks, and that's the end of it.
I don't think I'm alone in this way of thinking. I've met a lot of people in this community who put a lot of emphasis on their characters' victories while secretly cherishing the losses, almost like they're ashamed of liking what they like. I've figured it out for myself and put it into words. Hopefully, people who feel similarly will be able to read this journal and gain a better understanding of their own interests!